Saturday, 30 January 2010

Let me


Asking the same silly questions?
Repeating the same meaningless action?
Trapping back to memories illusion?
Getting hurt again?
It seems stupid, time wasting, self destruction.
No way avoiding the buried memories. Escape is not a solution.
Dig it out.
Don't catch me when I fall.
Need to feel the pain.
Need to feel the hurt.
Let tears refresh the heart.
Surprised.
Pain and hurt is lessen each time.
Heart is still sinking but slower.
Still cold but not trembling anymore.
Will be finished soon.
Light is at the end of dark tunnel.

Thursday, 7 January 2010

A letter to heaven


Dear Bruce,
How are you lately? I am sorry I just knew that why you didn't reply my messages. Why you ignored the birthday greeting. I am sorry for that Bruce. I hope I could know earlier.
Might be that's fate. Things are being arranged. Remember those days we chatted in busy Travel room. Lots of people came and gone. But we have some true friendship there. And some of them keeping till now. I treasure them a lots.
We loved chatting with you. You just like sunshine. Always brought smiles to us. You like a magician. Easily went through one's heart by tiny things. I was surprised how you could read my mind.
You were so sweet, so supportive. Your attitude and passion of life were appealing. I was sad that out of reach with you.
Thanks Facebook. Found you there again. Felt like seeing an old friend on street. Lots to catch up. Lots to share. You were still the same Bruce.
Remember I said like your unfinished painting? I am a bit regret had said so though the painting do look great with raw feeling. But I have no chance to see the finished one anymore........
I was really shocked when getting an email from your friend. I thought she was kidding. And I do hope that she was. You should be travelling somewhere and hiding.
Bruce, I do feel so sad and bad. I have no choice but hope you are resting peacefully.
Miss you forever.
With loves,
bebe